One of the pivotal moments in my life came when my business collapsed, forcing me to start from scratch and reinvent myself. It was during this tumultuous period that I unearthed a profound truth: my actions were driven by a "shadow why." I was compelled by an insatiable need to prove my worth to others. This realization revealed that I had defaulted into a career in real estate not out of passion, but out of a lack of options. For over two decades, I endeavored to validate my worth through a profession that neither ignited my passion nor fulfilled my purpose.
Real estate, despite its numerous benefits, did not resonate with my core. It provided financial stability and allowed me to raise my daughters, for which I am profoundly grateful. The profession imparted invaluable lessons and opportunities, but it never aligned with my deeper purpose. It wasn't until I approached my 50s that I began to contemplate my true desires, identity, and the reason for my existence. Thankfully, I have since uncovered these answers, although the struggle with feelings of unworthiness persists.
This pervasive sense of unworthiness is deeply intertwined with shame, a burden I have carried throughout my life. My upbringing conditions, juxtaposed with affluent peers, exacerbated these feelings. While my friends enjoyed material abundance, I often felt inadequate, which later influenced my social circles and choices. Instead of aspiring towards academic and professional success, I gravitated towards self-destructive behaviors, including drug use.
This pattern of behavior was underpinned by early childhood beliefs that I was only worthy of such a lifestyle, not of higher education or a prosperous future. Even brief attempts at college were overshadowed by my struggle with heroin addiction, which ultimately derailed my academic pursuits.
Recognizing these patterns and their origins is crucial to healing. The journey to overcome unworthiness involves delving into the root causes of our triggers, reactions, and emotions. It requires a deep understanding of what drives our guilt, shame, and self-sabotage. This process is not just about identifying our shadow why but also about transforming it.
I am committed to exploring this unworthiness and encourage others to do the same. Begin by reflecting on your desires and goals. Start by listing what you don't want and use this as a springboard to identify what you truly yearn for. Align these desires with your core values and virtues. Understanding your true wants is the first step towards embodying your worthiness.
To support this journey, I will be offering and hosting a special pop-up Mindset Reset session focused on embracing worthiness to conquer imposter syndrome. Join me to unlock your true potential and cultivate a mindset of soulful prosperity.
đź“… Date: Thursday, June 20, 2024
⏰ Time: 7:30 PM
đź”— https://www.jennifermaher.com/imposter-syndrome
Don’t miss this transformative opportunity!
Sending love, light, and prosperity your way,
Jenn Maher
Soulful Prosperity Coach
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